Prone to wander…

I have been Missing in Action when it comes to blogging the last several months. I have been–and still am–wandering on purpose. Every morning I wander around the latest place I have moved. I look for needles in haystacks, a cup of coffee, an important paper, keys…I know you understand. I wander around the countryside (which is very beautiful out here) trying to find my way when I have no points of reference. I do a lot of wandering. And Wondering. “What’s that?” “Why does that….” Where does this go? Where did that go? I’ve also been sorting a lot. Moving in middle age is an enormous exercise in values clarification, not unlike later life downsizing. One becomes more generous, realizing that the thing in one’s hand would be more treasured or useful to someone else. My hold on things simultaneously becomes more fierce and more lax. I can’t let that desk go because my maternal grandfather made it. I can’t let that desk go because my father made it. I have too many desks that do not accommodate today’s technology.
wandering mind 1My mind wanders. Sorting things, opening boxes, packing boxes,
finding new places for things….the whole time my mind wanders remembering who gave me that thing, where I placed it in previous houses.  Then there’s the delightful moment of finding something that went missing, and wondering where i’st been all this time. I actually enjoy this part of the journey. This is, however, slow work.
Yes, I have wandered off the path. I haven’t been lost, just traveling.
I am continuing this blog with great affection. It is more
personal in nature, and usually connects to the scriptures I read in worship. Folks at St. Paul’s are asking me to publish my sermons weekly. If you know me personally, you will wandering brainknow how difficult that is for me and laugh. I am working to comply with the expressed need, however, by means of compromise. I am setting up another blog that relates directly to the St. Paul’s, preaching, and reaching people. It will be less personal, more public, and provide weekly summaries of the sermon I preach on Sunday–after the fact, say on Tuesdays. I am calling it “Keep On Sowing” and I will let you know when it is ready to go live! I’ve missed writing terribly, but I promise the last few months have given a lot of fuel for the fire. Stay tuned.




About Pastor Betsy Williams

I am a mom. And a wife. And a Friend. And a homeowner. And a dog ...uh....owner? Actually make that two dogs. Two kids. One husband. I'm an ELCA Lutheran pastor of a beautiful downtown church. I am the third senior pastor in a century, so my 10-12 years here may feel like an interim to some of the folks here. Recently I have had no spare time. In my spare time in the future, my imagination inhabits a novel I am writing, The Funeral Preacher. My primary blog is a personal reflection on the Revised Common Lectionary...mostly: "Not All Who Wander are Lost." A few years ago I was on a team of writers who produced a little book for Augsburg Fortress in the Washed and Welcome series called "Living the Promises." It's 101 ideas for helping parents and godparents nurture their children in the faith of their baptism. I am developing another blog, more about worship at St. Paul's Lutheran Church, Newark, Ohio and including a summary of the past week's preaching. Otherwise, I imagine myself to be a musician, liturgical artist, cook in a five star restaurant where the patrons keep ordering chicken nuggets, but never a bottle washer. I know how to delegate and share.
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